Thursday, December 24, 2009

Reflection


This is my second year in Trinidad, leaving my life as a dentist and lecturer behind to become a full time mum. Do I regret my decision? To be honest, sometimes I regret it. But most of the times I'm very grateful that I have choices and be able to choose.


If I have to count the bless of being lecturer (and dentist), it would be countless. Opportunity to learn new things every time I stood in front of enthusiastic students, to learn from the very best teachers in their field and see the passion in their eyes, to have friends and best friends with the same 'language', to help people understand things, to learn how to be organized and structured, and to learn that I did it not because of the money *you have to know first how much the gov pay the civil servant :) and believe that God will take care of my family no matter how small or big my salary was. It is priceless... Often I said to my colleague that I worked to entertain my self and to give me my own time and world. I'm very lucky that I had that opportunity.

Now I live my life as full time mum, with two wonderful boys and one amazing husband that I believe God had picked for me. We're not perfect, but we're perfect for each other. I wouldn't deny that I had some stressful time at the beginning. It's funny because I had nothing to be stressed for: no deadline, no bosses, no tight schedule, no traffic jam :) So why's that?
Apparently I lost my confidence, my sense of achievement, my 'own money' and the worst was I was losing my faith that God knows the very best for me. Fortunately, my mums and my bosses (yes, my bosses, who become my very best other sister and other mum) always remind me to ask for the best to God.

Being mum is a very wonderful opportunity. I can see how much they need me, even though they didn't say anything about it. To be able to stand beside them every time they need, is a bless. I'm glad that I had the chance to be a working mum. It made my kids appreciate my presence more, especially my big one. He'd been through the time when I choose my work over my family and lived separated from my husband. My husband was working in Abu Dhabi for two years, and Paris for less than one year, and yes... I choose to stay at my home country and keep working as lecturer and dentist. Leaving my son with a baby sitter, a house keeper and a driver :D, from morning to evening. But I didn't regret it at all. But I realized that I can be so stupid sometimes.

The only thing that had changed my mind to follow my husband to live in Trinidad was it's too far to be reached from Jakarta if something came up. And I don't want to regret it. Because I believe God give me kids since I can be a good mum. I have my own passion to teach, to study and to help people in my field. I believe I will have my time, later on when my family is ready for it. But this time I have to stay and focus to give my family the very best from me.

Monday, October 19, 2009

:D

Hehehe, hari ini ketemu dokter pengganti untuk minta clearance statement bahwa Farhan boleh kembali ke sekolah. What I found funny is tadi waktu kita ke klinik. Jadi sebetulnya Farhan diminta sama dokter untuk kembali 2 hari setelah demamnya hilang, artinya Sabtu. Tapi dokter ybs lg konferens di luar nagri. Alhasil waktu Jumat minta appointment, sm dokter pengganti, dibilang Sabtu teh penuh pisaaan. Beliaunya available Selasa. Eleueh... meni lama pisan. Tapi dipikir2, kata CDC kan si adek (krn tinggal serumah sm yang sakit) termasuk emaknya jg harus stay at home 5 days after first day onset: hari Minggu. Trus Farhan sendiri dibilang 'aman' setelah seminggu. Jadi ya sutra, kalo harus Selasa ya mari. Biar anaknya jg istirahat. Eh, tadi pagi ana ditalipun, katanya dokter bisa jam atu. Okeh deh... Off we go. Njur jam 1 kita sudah readdy setty, duduk manis, lah pasiennya banyak yak. Dan kita ternyata urutan 4, si pak dokter blum datang. O'o... Masalah pertama: si ayah meni kasihan mesti bolos kelamaan di kantor (eergh, kan tuh front officernya bisa bilang dokter mulai jam 1, kamu kira2 datang kan 1.30 deh. make our life easier) Tp akhirnya si ayah ngalah, tunggu aja deh. Daripada ntar balik lg si dokter dah kabur. Lama lagi urusannya. Masalah kedua: owalah...itu ruang praktek isinya org sentrap sentrup, uhuk uhuk, dll. Dan ngga satupun pake tissue kek, hand sanitizer kek, atawa rada sopan dikit gitu. Itupun eyang2 ada yg batuk ke tangannya, njur ambil minum di water cooler. Laaah....Meanwhile anak gw pake masker dua2nya, just in case mereka msh infeksius. Walaupun diliatin kayak alien. Begitu giliran Farhan, tiba2 mereka nyadar: waduh, ini kasus influenza A ya. Ayo2 kita di ruang isolasi aja, padahal waktu nunggu ya ruangannya sama, trus mendadak susternya bilang pake maskernya ya *dari td jg pake :p, bla bla bla. Kalo si mbak itu sadar, tadi dia ambil minum dari cooler yg sebelumnya didhemek2 sama si eyang yg abis batuk, kira2 gimana ya.. Tapi ya biarin dah. Lucu aja liat mrk tiba2 'panik' setelah sebelumnya cuek bebek. Padahal sumber infeksi yg lain memenuhi ruangan itu. Ya mudah2an semua yg di ruang tunggu, termasuk mbak2nya tadi sehat2 aja. Alhamdulillah setelah dokternya periksa dan tahu kalo Farhan udah seminggu diisolasi setelah infeksi, si adek jg, agak lega kayaknya *malah maskernya dilepas, gimana to dok :) Alhamdulillah juga anak2 dibilang clear. Walaupun si adek, krn belum terinfeksi, masih bisa terinfeksi dari sumber lain. Insya Allah jangan deh... Mudah2an Farhan kasus yg terakhir di rumah dan di sekolah. Biar virusnya pergi aja ke laut, jangan balik lagi. Jadi insya Allah besok anak2 udah bisa sekolah lagi dan mudah2an sekolah jadi tempat yg 'aman'. Take care ya...

Friday, October 16, 2009

Mmmm...

Tengah minggu ini dibikin jantungan sama anak kecil. Selasa siang pulang sekolah Farhan ngeluh capek, naga2nya mau sakit. Lalu abis jemput bapaknya dia langsung tidur tepatnya ketiduran di sofa. Besoknya panas, sampai 39.7 C. Bikin appointment dengan dokter dan langsung meluncur ke tempat prakteknya jam 10 diantar Ms Jeffrey. Ketemu dokternya, ditanya knapa niih... Trus nyuk nyak nyuk diperiksa. Wah, sore throatnya parah nih. Dokter bilang ini mungkin influenza. Tapi kita cek aja deh, pergi tes ya. Okeh deh. Mmm... but you know what I'm sure it's flu. Tesnya cuma buat memastikan apakah ini kategori influenza A atau bukan. Gw cuma bilang: ooo... ok. Dokternya merepet lagi: dari hasil tes ini ngga bisa konfirm kalo ini h1n1 atau bukan, masalahnya untuk konfirmasi saat ini pusat tesnya lg kewalahan atas banyak request pemeriksaan. Mulai deh gw bengoooong... Dokternya lanjut: tapi kalau ini positif, dianggap aja iya, langsung perawatan standar (*apakah itu? tidak dijelaskan). Empat puluh delapan jam setelah demamnya pergi, baru kamu bawa lagi ke sini untuk re evaluasi apakah dia sudah boleh ke sekolah atau belum. Gw: jadi setelah 2 hari kita ke sini lagi? (*bego bgt deh gw, nerjemahin gt aja ngga bisa) Dokter: Ya gw ngga bisa periksa dia selama dia masih demam. Dua hari setelah demamnya turun baru bawa ke sini. Itupun krn saya mau konferens nanti ketemu temen saya ya. Yg penting sekarang kalau hasilnya positif kamu harus telpon sekolah dan kabari mereka. Gw: ?!#???? *bingung tapi sambil berusaha mencerna semuanya Dokter: terusin aja panadol untuk ngurangin demamnya, banyak minum, terutama air kelapa yg banyak. Gw: ok Isi asuransi, minta cap, bayar, trus pergi tes ke rumah sakit deket rumah. Semuanya dikerjain sambil bengong. Di jalan Mrs Jeffrey sampai nanya: emang segitu parahnya. Gw: let's find out. Singkat cerita, pulang tes, siang itu gw habiskan dengan cek sana sini soal beda influenza A sama h1n1, soal perawatan pasien, kontrol infeksi dsb. Farhan sendiri langsung masuk kamar yg tertutup , dikarantina ceritanya, dan si adek dipersilakan jauh2 dari dia. Masih ada sedikit denial, krn hari itu gw bener2 habisin waktu buat nyari semua sumber yg berhubungan dgn FluA ini. Sore si ayah nelpon, hasilnya positif. Status gw : masih bingung arti hasil lab itu, walaupun alhamdulillah tangan dan kaki gw bergerak seperti yg seharusnya: memperlakukan Farhan sebagai sumber infeksi, isolasi dia, tapi sambil cekokin segala rupa (sup ayam, jus sampai madu), protek si adek dan diri sendiri (pake masker, dll). Alhamdulillah... ada temen sekolah gw (SD, SMP, SMA ya Ret?) Retno yg lg di Jepang, kebetulan pernah punya masalah yg sama, dan bliaunya dokter juga. Alhamdulillah juga dia dengan gamblangnya menjelaskan step by step yg harus dilalui berdasarkan pengalaman dia. Message nya bikin gw lebih tenang dan lebih realistis. It's not easy but doable. Thanks a lot, my friend. I owe you much! Tapi yg jelas message Retno jug menunjukkan bahwa approach terhadap influenza ('biasa'/seasonal vs h1n1) di Jepun dan di Trinidad langsung kelihatan bedanya :D (ironis sih sebenernya). Di Jepun, precautionnya tinggi banget. Influenza A positif, langsung isolasi, tembak antivirus, no antipiretik, dan jelas banget SOP nya. Lah ini, komen dr pihak2 berwenang menurut gw minim dan kadang ngga antisipatif. Sifatnya lebih responsif, which is kadang2 bisa bahaya krn kita terlambaaat bho... Jadi malam itu gw putuskan, stop cari2 referens, mulai kerja dan face the fact. No matter what, ini flu, yg sebenernya flu 'biasa'/seasonal pun bisa fatal kalo ngga ditreat seperti seharusnya. Yg bikin beda dgn h1n1 adalah massive impact dan penyebarannya yg luar biasa. Itu juga yg bikin gw napsu menyebarkan info ini ke teman2. Walaupun di Indonesia itu flu adalah barang jamak, sebenernya bisa banget dihentikan penyebarannya, kalau kita tahu 'cara mainnya' si virus. Fakta menunjukkan even di Amrik, banyak jg korban meninggal krn si 'flu biasa' itu. Belum lagi kerugian waktu dan finansial yg ditimbulkan krn absen akibat flu. Jadi mau dibilang urusan sepele, juga bisa... mau dibilang serius jg ngga salah. Jadi step pertama kasih kabar ke sekolah, kasih tahu kalau virus ini sudah sampai di sekolah. Ngga perlu dikasih upacara penyambutan, cukup dihadapi dengan proper hygiene dan proper reaction. Sambil berharap dari mana pun Farhan terinfeksi, sekolah make sure menghentikan penyebaran nya . Jg ngabarin gurunya Arif, bahwa untuk sementara walaupun ngga menunjukkan gejala dia gw karantina di rumah, walaupun kayaknya si guru ngga terlalu engeh sama maksud gw: safety precaution. Malam itu masih kasih Farhan panadol, padahal menurut Retno kalo di Jepang anak2 ngga dikasih antipiretik supaya ngga susah bedain panasnya turun karena obat atau karena memang sudah melemah. Tapi berhubung takut panasnya terlalu tinggi, tiap 6 jam tetap gw kasih. Besok paginya mulai berpikir jernih dan alhamdulillah panasnya mereda. Jadi mulai beberes kamar yg ditempatin Farhan, mengurangi kemungkinan kuman nempel ke barang2 di kamar (jd barang2 pritil2 gw pindahin, siapa tahu dia hatshi hatshi di situ) juga kamar mandinya. Semprot2 desinfektan, ngepel, dll. Untung bawa masker sama sarung tangan sekotak dari Jakarta. Jd semua di rumah pakai masker, dan kalo gw bebersih pake sarung tangan. Farhan punya tissue, hand sanitizer, gelas disposable dan tempat sampah dll sendiri di kamar. Minum air kelapa, air putih, jus (*lupa kalo punya Zam2), madu, vitamin C, tapi puasa susu dulu (biar ngga batuk, bener ngga ya?). Untungnya nafsu makannya masih bagus. Tiap kali dikasih makan, alhamdulillah masuk. Walaupun kalo udah kebanyakan dia ngeluh mual. So far he seems recovered. Mungkin gw agak over reacting, tp menurut gw sekolah perlu do something. Sayangnya suster sekolah jawab email gw dengan nada yg kurang pas. Mudah2an bukan gw suudzon. Tapi basically dia bilang kalo hasil tesnya Farhan itu baru inisial, dan perlu konfirmasi. Menurut hasil 'riset' gw, Influenza A itu adalah 'emaknya' virus A, di 'dalam'nya ada 16 subtype termasuk h1n1 (tergantung jenis binatang host dan enzym yg bikin dia bisa aktif). Yang kedua, ada reportase status penyakit ini di US, dan katanya 90 (atau malah 99)% kasus yg positif influenza A setelah dikonfirmasi adalah h1n1. Yang ketiga, ini berdasarkan statement dokter anak gw, guru gw di Amsterdam, dan common sense, kalau memang konfirmasi tes ngga banyak mengubah treatment pasien ya just do the treatment instead of spend much times, money and effort to do the test (tes awalnya aja si anak udah sangat ngga nyaman, disodok begitu hidungnya). Fakta berikutnya adalah 50% kasus influenza (yg versi A dan versi 'biasa) bisa asymptomatik alias nggak keliatan dan bahkan ngga berasa sama ybs. Next, flu itu infeksius mulai satu hari sebelum gejala muncul, sampai 5 hari sejak gejala nongol. Walaupun menurut rekomendasi CDC anak2 harus tetap tinggal di rumah sampai 24 jam setelah demamnya turun tanpa obat (dokter gw malah nyuruh 48 jam). Artinya: Ya sudah terima aja, Farhan kena flu. Mau h1n1 atau bukan, yang harus dicegah itu penyebarannya terutama ke adeknya yg kadang2 kambuh gejala asmanya. Lalu berusaha memperkuat kondisi anak2 supaya dia bisa melawan virus ini dengan daya tahan tubuhnya sendiri. Selain itu memastikan kalau virus ini berhenti di sini aja, ngga pergi ke mana2, termasuk ke sekolah. Plus genjot stamina sendiri dan suami, supaya bisa tahan banting. Lalu... mikir deh. Inkubasi virus ini 1-4 hari. Artinya virus ini bisa jadi ada di sekolah, karena Farhan selama periode itu ya di situ2 aja. Lalu gimana kalo pas anak2 balik sekolah ada anak lain yg masih flu. Trus gw telpon2 deh. Eh, ada jg temen gw yg anaknya habis demam, lalu begitu ngga demam langsung brangkat sekolah. Waaak... Ada berapa anak nih yg ngeteng2 kuman ke sekolah, tanpa tahu kalo dia masih infeksius. Kalo ngga sengaja bersin, lupa cuci tangan, buka pintu kelas atau pegang2 buku...laya sekolah sama dengan sarang kuman. Belum lagi kalo inget kebiasaan anak2 pegang muka, trus pegang ini anuh itu. Walah.. Ndilalahnya pas gw lagi bingung2 hari pertama Farhan dibilang terinfeksi influenza A, ada teman di sekolah yg kebetulan home room mum nelpon dan ngobrol. Gw sempet keceplosan ngomong bahwa gw liat sekolah ngga merespon kasus ini dengan pantes. Gw ngga mau anak gw nanti pas sekolah lg dijauhin anak2 lain, tp gw pengen mastiin orang tua lain tahu apa yg mesti dikerjakan kalau anak2 kena flu dan bagaimana mencegahnya (mau seasonal flu ataupun flu A ini)., termasuk mencegah penyebarannya ke org lain. Gw ngga pengen sekolah di suspend, tapi jg ngga seneng liat mereka underestimate atas keparahan penyakit ini kalo dibiarin begitu aja. Jadi kalaupun org lain perlu tahu kalo Farhan terinfeksi, ngga papa, asal mereka jg tahu bagaimana harus mengantisipasi. Kayaknya yg 'ngaku' kalo flu A nya positif cuma gw. Sementara anak2 yg kemarin2 demam tinggi dan batuk, dianggap ngga papa, bisa jadi karena mrk ngga tes atau malah ngga lapor ke sekolah. Jadi akibatnya sekolah ngga tahu persis peta kondisi kesehatan anak2, which is a shame. Singkatnya, temen gw itu email ke mamah2 yg lain, crita kalo Farhan sakit, dsb, dsb. Intinya mama Farhan concern atas kesehatan anak2 yg lain dan pengen mastikan kalo universal precautions itu diterapkan. Email itu sampai ke presiden komite sekolah yg kebetulan anaknya sekelas sm Farhan. Walhasil pagi tadi dia nelpon gw, dan nanya2. Jadi Evy, menurut kamu sekolah ngga merespon seperti yg kamu harapkan. Mmm...kok kalimatnya begini ya. Lalu bla bla bla...gw jelasin lg tujuan gw yg intinya cuma mau make sure semuanya aware dan jaga kesehatan masing2 anak. Kalaupun demam, walaupun cuma demam ngga pake batuk dll, keep them stay at home until 24 hours after fever is gone without any medication. Trus dia bilang, okeh... saya mau ketemu kepala sekolah, ngomongin soal ini. Wadoh... FYI, gw ini termasuk yg punya sedikit masalah dengan sekolah. Yg sayangnya sebagian besar gw rasa disebabkan karena isu sara. Kalau ditambah masalah ini, bijimana urusannya... Sempet senewen, tapi lalu ingat. Gw ini cuma speak out. Sesuatu yg gw rasa perlu dibenerin, yg gw omongin. Dan kalau masalah kesehatan dan sekolah, ngelapor dan keep both of my kids home itu bagian dari tanggung jawab gw untuk bikin sekolah jd tempat yg aman untuk anak2. I did my part, then it'll be their turn now to do their part. Siangnya, di newsletter muncul selipan surat dari kepsek, yg intinya mrk tahu ada kasus influenza A di sekolah (ngga dibilang siapa, tp dibilang grade berapa. Yg entah kenapa, bikin gw jad sebal, krn nadanya itu agak mendiskreditkan: nih, elo lapor, ya gw kasih tahu ke yg lain. tanggun sendiri resikonya... *mmm, kenapa gw negatif bener yak) Lalu mereka harus naikin status mrk ke level 3, which is mesti begini begitu begini begitu (let's just see the implementation daily). Di akhir suratnya ada tulisan/saran untuk menghentikan penyebaran berita yg salah/misinformation. Sebenernya gw bersyukur, at least mereka do something. Tapi entah karena minggu ini ada hari skeptik sedunia, atau karena emang hati gw kotor dan bawaannya suudzon mulu, rasanya gw belum bisa percaya. kalo mereka akan bener2 lakukan itu. Tapi kita lihat nanti aja gimana follow upnya. Rasanya gw udah agak lega karena message gw dah sampai ke pucuk sana, dan untungnya tadi pagi gw juga sempat email mamah2 yg lain flyer dari CDC soal Seasonal dan H1N1 Flu ini. Beban moral gw dah lumayan berkurang. Sekarang tinggal do the follow up. Wuaaah, panjang bener yak ceritanya. Tapi poin bahwa flu (apapun) bisa dicegah, yg penting kita tahu bahwa kadang2 dia bisa menipu dengan tidak menunjukkan gejala daaan dia masih bisa berkeliaran walaupun ybs itu jg dah sembuh dari demamnya. Pokoknya kalo bersin mending ke lengan baju atau tissue yg langsung dibuang, dan itu namanya tangan mendingan nempel di baju aja, jangan ke tempat lain: muka, pintu, pencetan hand sanitizer, keran *coba bayangin, tangan kotor buka keran, trus kita cuci tangan sampe bersih trus nutup keran lagi pakai tangan bersih. Apa ngga kumannya cuma ngekos sebentar aja di keran untuk balik lagi ke tangan kita? jd kalo nutup keran mending pakai tissue yg buat ngeringin ya... Dan kalo boleh titip doa, supaya dimanapun kita semua berada kita selalu dilindungi oleh Allah SWT dari segala kesulitan, bencana dan penyakit. Sehingga kita bisa sehat lahir batin. Amiiin...

H1N1 (Swine Flu)

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Referensi yg mungkin berguna: 1. http://www.cdc.gov/h1n1flu/schools/technicalreport.htm 2. http://www.cdc.gov/h1n1flu/sick.htm 3. http://www.cdc.gov/flu/freeresources/print.htm

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Golf?

I don't think so ... But wait, when you have no 'job' plus 'serious' career and all you have to do is enjoy your day, maybe golf is a good idea. So I gave it a shot, and now here I am doing some golf lesson with professional instructor. It's funny when I realized that one day I said I couldn't understand smart people hitting the ball over an over again, and now I'm doing it! I found that here in Trinidad people do sports a lot, and golf is not belong to certain group of people. So everyone can play. You don't even have to buy your own club, rent one. Just go, play and enjoy. See if you really like it. Now, I can appreciate Tiger and Ochoa's work more than ever. It's not an easy sport, but still doable. If you're live in Indonesia, you'll love the fact that driving range and golf course are everywhere. It's strange though I hit this sport here in Trinidad, where there are only three golf course nation wide (correct me if I'm wrong).

After long break

It's time to write again :) So today, I went to Radica's Pottery in Chaguanas with kinders. It's a great experience! Using maxi taxi from Mr James, fyi it's a good one, off we go from school at 9 am. The kids were so excited though it was quite a journey. So we sang, we played I spy, even take a little nap on the bus :) Radica's Pottery is like family pottery, they made pots, plates, etc. But in this Divali time, they make a lot of diyas (small clay pot with oil that lit for Divali). So the kids saw the clay, touched it, saw how it wedged and made one diyas each. Yipeee.... But wait, I saw Ms Mouttet and Ms Khan did it too, and ooo... mums took turn as well :) So everyone had a very good time. Although a kitten came and distracted most of us.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

Maya Angelou

"My great hope is to laugh as much as I cry; to get my work done and try to love somebody and have the courage to accept the love in return." But my biggest mistake is expecting to accept the love in return from human being. Please forgive me God, for rely on other than You :'

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Ladies Trip to Ajoupa

It's almost a month before Flora leave the country, so we want to take her explore the island as much as possible :) Last week, Adam Williams, our pottery teacher, had an exhibition together with Bunty form Ajoupa Pottery. On the same day, Picasso Plein Air Painting also planned to have a session at Ajoupa. What a perfect arrangement! On the day, it was raining all morning....after all the sunny days before. The best thing to do at that time was cuddling under the blanket on bed :) But off we go to Ajoupa, all ladies with all painting and picnic supplies. The place is great! The display are nice... Unfortunately our favorite pieces was away too expensive than my budget for pottery :( So I ended up with a piece from Adam, with his sign, and two plates from Bunty. How about the painting? Actually I was tempted to follow Peter. He drew under an umbrella behind the bush. But since I had a camera in my hand, I prefer to use it and left my sketch book inside my bag. But I was quite happy for the picture that I got. Unfortunately, Flora and her daughter, who is a very talented artist, decided not to draw at all. But I really hope she's happy with the vase that she bought from Bunty. It really looks like her piece from Adam's class. It was a great time together. Really hope can spend more time with them.

Friday, June 5, 2009

Friday, May 29, 2009

Love is a verb, so do it!

Habis baca artikel Ketika Cinta Terurai Menjadi Perbuatan dari grup Muslimah. Subhanallah. Alhamdulillah Allah masih mengingatkan. Jadi ingat quote yg gw dapet bertahun2 yang lalu, bahkan mungkin sebelum nikah. Walaupun sudah lupa, dari mana sumbernya. Love is a verb, so don't try to find love, but do love someone/something. Love is a verb, so love can not disappear, you just have to learn to love more Love is a verb, so most of the time if you love someone/something, it's because you do something that make you love it, not because love fall from the sky. Jadi gw bingung kalo tiba2 orang yg sudah bersuami/istri bilang bisa jatuh cinta, sama orang lain. Apalagi kalau sampai bilang karena dia sudah nggak cinta lagi sama suami/istrinya. Ngapain ajaaaa.... Kalau kita sudah berkomitmen, ya do the work dong. Kalau terasa 'percik2' nya sudah hilang, ya try to love him/her as a whole person, find his/her best that make us decided to marry him/her. Kalaupun terasa ada percik2 dari org lain yg terasa sebagai cinta, dengarkan hati nurani: do you really love it/him/her? Jangan2 itu cuma nafsu, ambisi atau bisikan setan. Kalaupun (keliatannya) memang cinta, ingat juga konsekuensi yg menyertainya, termasuk mungkin menyakiti hati orang yg mencintai kita. Rasulullah memang pernah dan bisa beristri lebih dari satu. But he did his homework. He's a special person with a special gift. And he learn to did it hard way with all the best quality that he had. Seperberapa kualitas kita dibanding Rasulullah? Jadi kalau kita berani membandingkan diri kita dengannya, berani juga nggak dengan konsekuensinya. Dan lagi, mestinya ngga ada cinta yang lebih besar di hati kita selain cinta pada Allah SWT Yang Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang. Sudahkah kita? *just to remind my self about my priority (copy from my fb note)

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Unacceptable

Is this the 'right' way to treat a human being? I believe, from any point of view it's just defined as unacceptable. Very wrong but nobody says anything... Weird and ironic. Don't know what I'm talking about? Read THIS

Monday, May 11, 2009

Birthday boys and busy mum :)

Yes, my boys' birthdays are only separated by one day (Farhan on 26th and Arif on 27th). It's good if you can make one birthday party for them. But because somehow they are different person and have a different personality too, sometimes it's only make my life went crazy :) Like this year, we had decided that no birthday party, we only buy presents that they really want and I would send cakes to Arif's class on Monday. But you know, children change their mind a lot. So practically we have two unplanned celebration: one with my Quran Study group (since Alfa kindly made the Spongebob Cake for the boys), one with the kids from next door (since we planned to slide on Sunday and thought it would be fun to ask them too); and two other planned 'party' in school on Monday. I didn't realize how crazy it could be until I baked 3 pans of cake, decorated it on Sunday and Monday morning (and realize I didn't have anything to prettify the cake besides cream cheese and limited amount of icing sugar, and no food coloring or else besides sprinkles :0 waaaak! No store open in Trinidad on Sunday, especially on 4 pm!!!!). Send the cakes to Farhan's class in the morning, went back home to decorate the other cake and went back to school to send the cake to Arif's class and set up the table. I ended the day by starring on piles of pans, bowl and other baking equipment in my kitchen. What a perfect day! It's a real challenge for me (especially with homework of 2 paintings from Hemali's class and 1 block of quilt from Cherri's class in my hand), but you know what, I enjoyed it somehow. The challenge of juggling between the tasks is really fun! Especially when the boys came back home and said: that's the best cake I've ever had and my friends really like it!!! Thank you mum! It's really worth to do :) Then I really grateful to Allah for everything I have today. And I can answer the question of why didn't I have them both born on the same day :p
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Sunday, May 10, 2009

Before I forgot

This is the story of my little boy, when he got five stitches on his lip. Lot of thoughts came when it happened, include the question why could it be so hard to find someone who can do it to 5 years old child. It ended with decision that next time I have to bring my own needle and thread although I'm not really sure I'll be strong enough to do it to my own child :(
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Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Never Forget

Take That, 2007 *what an old lady I am :)

Another activity to get the most of my stay :)

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I found a great teacher in pottery: Adam Williams, thanks to Holly. And I became his student for a while. It's fun, especially when he let us work as crazy as we can :) And the wheel, it's scary but I begin to like it. Adam is a great teacher, always encouraging and open minded. He made each session exciting, although we always exhausted every time the class is over :) And I have to mention that Adam is a very kind and sweet person. One day I had to bring Arif with me, after I asked Adam of course. And you know what, Arif ended up doing pottery as well with us. Adam kindly provided the glaze and the clay and everything, for free :) Arif really enjoyed it and he proudly told his brother that he was doing pottery with mummy. Actually there are times that feels like I'm in my first year on dental school, with plaster of paris, carving etc, but with more fun teacher. Thanks Adam!

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

My Fun Art Class

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Pfffuuhh...what a week, with the flu, etc. I should apologize because I'm sooo late in posting this. As I mentioned here, I join this art group with Hemali as the teacher. And sadly last week is our last class, since she's moving to Alaska, Flora's moving to Spain and Holly's going back and forth from States. So, last moment should be well recorded, right? Especially when you have a really great time together. We finished our Trini's style street scene, actually it's a Trini's house painting. Everyone have gorgeous painting, and sweet souvenir to be brought back home. Flora with her clean and precise painting of gingerbread house (like always she has the cleanest space among us), Chris also has the same house but with her fun, enjoyable style of working (it's really inspiring to see her doing her work in such a easy breezy way :) which turned out to be a great painting) and Ann with her neat, sharp and bright St James' house (I can see where Lena get her intelligence). And the most important is we're happy :). I'm thinking about Holly's painting, and I remember her bright and bold fisherman boat, also the colorful leaves from Trini. I should ask her about that. A week before, Hemali made her special last class' breakfast *unfortunately I forgot to take pictures. With her banana bread, cheese pie and...special award for everyone! What a lovely surprise :) It is impressive how precise she notice every single strength of each student. I would never be able to find a teacher like her. No bad words, at all; only encouraging words. Even when we've tired of our own painting and nearly desperate, she could always find a bright side and made us continue the work. So special thanks and appreciation for lovely Hemali, who had showed me the fun side of painting/drawing and make me start to learn appreciating art more than before. I'll post the result later and for now enjoy the class scene (some of the photos remind me of my early years in school :)) *I wrote this blog to learn English, so please correct me if I'm wrongly write something :p

Friday, April 24, 2009

Ladies Surprise Farewell Lunch

What a long title :) Okay, so for the last month, the girls from Hemali's art class thinking about having farewell lunch for Flora. The challenge would be how to keep it as a secret from her. But anyway, we made it last Tuesday. Yayy... Chris, Holly and I had such an experience in preparing it. It's fun and it always put a smile on my face every time I remember it. Special thanks to Holly Hill who hosted the lunch in her -full of her art work- home, and also to Chris Norman for bringing the gift, the foods AND get caught by Flora in the parking lot :D LOL Huge thanks for Bu Hanna Evans for her delicious curry, Ima Smith for the best mee goreng in Westmooring (and sharing her birthday party with us), Shagufta Iqbal for her tasty Okra dish, Kris Boucher for her healthy crunchy cookies (I grab some for my kids :)), Abeer Ali for her nice and warm cinnamon/apple cakes and cornmeal cake, and last but not least Noriko Suzuki for her fancy cookies. Another thanks is for Farida, as it was a busy day for her but she put our lunch first. I wish Flora a great time and experience in Madrid. I'm sure she'll be alright wherever she is, since she's such a very very nice person. And she'll make a lot of friends like here in Trinidad (even the guy from HiLo know her name!). I remember her kindly help when I first came to Trinidad. It was not easy for me, but she had showed me how to deal with it, and how to survive here. I can't thank Flora enough for everything. We'll miss you, Flora, but remember to always have an extra bed because we'll see you in Madrid for another ladies lunch :) Enjoy the pictures!
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Tuesday, April 14, 2009

A very sad sad story

Laila posted a shocking story while she attempted to reach her home. It started here. I can not imagine being deported with a baby and a toddler in her hand, know nothing about what's next, in a strange place for 2 days! It's horrible, for sure :( Why it could be so difficult for some people to just go home. I know God would not let it go. If not in this world, I believe there will be fair judgment in the hereafter.

Never judge a book from its cover

Today I read Pak Wahyu's status on FB. He posted a link that make me thrilled. You can watch the video here. It's so inspiring. It proves that you can always have a dream. And if you really want it, just go for it. We have right to pursue our dream, no matter what. Don't waste the time. Don't look for an excuse. We could always say it's not a right time or a right place. There will be no such a perfect condition for all of us, for sure. So why wait anymore? Just do it, whatever the 'condition' said. This lady showed the courage to face the world and show her talent. Is it the right time for her? I don't think 47 is a good age to start a career as a professional singer like Elaine Paige *believe me, I was not the only one who thought so. Is it comfortable to see the skeptical face on the audience while she started? I don't think so *I hate the smirk upon the youngster face. In fact I just want to kick them. But she doesn't care about her age, she doesn't care about the people's thought. She just did what she believe as her chance of a lifetime. Don't let the life kill the dream you dreamed.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Indonesian Election

Today, my country had its third election after 1998 reformation. And this is my first election aboard. It's really such an experience. But after several times, I learned to stay on the ground. Sometimes I put too much hope on this kind of event. But now, I just use my right and do my obligation as a good citizen. I see, I do some research, I think and I choose. It's not easy to choose one over more than 40 parties *o yeah, we have more than 250 million people, so 40 is not really a bad number :) But I believe, as a human we just do our best, and God will take care the rest. I have a proof regarding this. My friend told me that he intended to choose X. But when he voted he choosed other party unintentionally. You can not tell how miserable he is. So, I could see there's a bigger power who organize everything. We just have to do what we have to do, in the very best way. Whoever win in this election, I believe it's the best for my country for this time. We still have to go through the learning process of becoming big nation. A lot of people have to learn to be a good and better citizen, including me. Just hope that the next leader will care more about educating the nation, improve the human resource quality and believe in God only.

Monday, April 6, 2009

JB Fever

After 2009 Kids' Choice Awards, my boys got crazy about Jonas Brother. If I were a girl, I would love them too *who can resist cute face?. But honestly, I don't understand why boys could become their fan as well. The other thing is I don't thing some performers are appropriate for such a kid show :( *Pussycat Dolls on KIDS' Choice Awards? I don't think so. Burnin' Up? I don't think the song is for the kids. Burp Zone? I try hard to teach the kids to be polite, and there is a burp competition on the show. Instead of arguing them, I just could accept their choice for now. One advantage is clear, they look for the lyric and try to memorize them. Yes, even my 4 years try to sing along with his brother :) Good exercise in English, indeed.

Free sight free mind

My grandmother Said that I should see open sky and green landmark when I was pregnant. Why? Hopefully by freeing (?) your sight, your mind would be set free as well, and the unborn child will feel that way too. And then hopefully the child will grow as an open minded kid. True? Might be... Just like what Jason Mraz said: lucky to have been where I have been, that's what I feel now. Especially when I saw my collection of photos that I took while I'm here in Trinidad. Sometimes I just take it for granted, but when I tried to put it together it turns our pretty. And again, you can complaint about thousands things here and everywhere. What we choose is more important. So I choose to stop complaining and be grateful for every second that God has given to me. Including enjoy the sight provided to us every single day, whether there's a pinkish cloud, heavy rain, wind, bright sun, hot weather, or even the earthquake. I just ask God to give us the very best in everything :) Enjoy the picture!
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Sunday, April 5, 2009

One Sky

It's amazing that the sky over my head keep changing every time. It could shows very thick, dark cloud, in the middle of the day; or blue pinkish smear cloud in the afternoon (my friend told me that the pinkish spot on the sky is very typical Caribbean sky). After a while, I realize I have quite a lot of sky photos. Inspired by Pak Wahyu, I made this mosaic for my own collection. Don't ask me who paint this beautiful sky. You should've known better. Just enjoy :)
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Friday, March 27, 2009

Another warn from God

We have to ask ourselves, what should we do to preserve our nature. They're sending their message all the time. Now, today, do something, anything. Even as small as sorting our garbage everyday. Or as big as think ahead before building houses in green zone and causing some people died. It feels so bad because some people didn't do their job properly and only think about the money they got. What a shame! Think ahead for our child's children. Our life is not for today only. This is our nature's last message And this is another example of bad thing we've done: Please stop torturing our environment!

Monday, March 23, 2009

Big question

I could never understand these people. They keep doing things like this and that. They think that they are better than the other. Where's in the earth that we have any right to torch human being, especially women and children? Meanwhile they shouting woman's right as an issue in Islamic world. What a contradiction. I only believe that what make a person different from the other is their good deeds that's done just because they believe in God. And that's include respecting woman and children and their right to live safely.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Broken English

One advantage of living abroad is fluency in English. For my kids it slightly different since they have already spoken our own language. So when they have to learn new language, sometimes it's mixed up. Yesterday, my son Farhan watched a movie with my husband. And suddenly he told us that his teacher said he and Arif are the most miripest brothers in school. My husband and I looked at each other and smiled *we don't want to discourage him for sure. And what he meant was he and Arif look very similar. In Indonesia we call it 'mirip'. But when he tried to find the synonym it became miripest :D Today we picked up my husband in his office and we saw a group of Trinidadian dancing on the street. My husband told them in Indonesia, " Lihat tuh ada orang joget" (there is people dancing). And Arif asked," Why are they jogetting on the street?". It was so funny especially when you heard it from 4 years old boy. It showed me that they keep using their brain all the time and makes me so happy that they are healthy. I can not thank Allah SWT enough for the blessing :)

Thursday, March 12, 2009

It's a great place with its uniqueness

I was inspired with some words from a lady from Japan, that no matter what happened in this country and whatever people tell you about this place, it would be nice to have something to remember from the country you live in. Again you could aways complaint about anything. But it's all a matter of choices, right. Whether you want to be happy or want to be grumpy :) Most of the times, I prefer to stay home because it's safer than to hit the road and explore the city. So far I went to downtown only twice :) But, I want to make the most of my time here anyhow. Nowadays, I learn as long as I well prepared, manage my time and route, and go in a group, mostly we'll be fine. So I started to do something beyond my routines. I begin with painting/drawing class with a teacher from India. She's been here for a while, was graduate from an art school in UK and found many good things here. She's a great teacher, in term of always encourage us to go beyond our comfort zone and challenge ourselves, and always supportive considering we're all just a beginner. And she never said a bad word about our painting/drawing. Here's some of my assignment. Some of them finished with my teacher's help. Some are mine alone. I'm trying to do typical objects in Trinidad so I could bring it back home as a personalized souvenirs. But, as you can see I have to learn a lot in drawing. As an activity, drawing is fun because the end result always surprise you :) And I learn one other thing, that as long as you happy and enjoy doing it, the end result is not always important. Because you know that a 'good' painting/drawing is a very subjective matter. Hope you enjoy as much as I am when I did it. I'm looking forward of your critiques.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Port of Spain through my lens

Today I have an opportunity to 'explore' the city of Port of Spain, to take some picture for our art class. At first I thought it'll be challenging. As you know, we should be very careful here since the crime rate is very high. I can't imagine six women getting around with camera over the shoulder, especially those with SLR. We're gonna look like a bunch of tourists! But it turned out pretty safe as long as we take notice of our surroundings. Yes there's time when men called and asked for money. But thanks God we're all safe and sound :) We started from St James, which is a busy area, since a lot of shops on the side of the road. Tell you the truth at first I didn't want to use my camera here, but I think God will protect us anyway. We're good people, right? Ahead to Savannah, which is might be the largest round about in the world (3.8 km if you walk all along the walking track). There are some old buildings, that used to be known as The Magnificent Seven in Trinidad *I'm trying to find a painting form Trinidadian artist about those buildings. After that we're going toward downtown area through Tragarette to the Independence Square. It's not a very safe area, so we only took pictures from inside the car :( The people there are very interesting actually. Afterward we're having a nice lunch in Adam's Bagel, a Syrian Resto with some halal meat. So I'm pretty happy :) But, surprise surprise... my husband ask me to pick him up from a warehouse in Chaguaramas. There's a port where the private boat 'parked' (I don't know what to call it :)). So I ended this day taking some pictures from the deck of Cruise Inn Restaurant. What a perfect day! Somehow, Port of Spain is enjoyable and I'm very lucky that I've been here :) You can complaint about thousands things here, but hey, there's always a bright side in everything. So why don't we focus on the good things indeed. Enjoy the pictures!
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Monday, February 16, 2009

The story has not ended yet

Are we happy that the war is over? Not really. And this is why it all has happened from the beginning. Is it illegal? I think so. Will anyone do anything? I don't think so. They say the Palestinian launched bombs to their land. Why? This is why. When your land is occupied little by little by other, will you stay calm? Please educate yourself. Find out the true story behind everything. This kind of story could not be found in most of news channels. Why? You figure it out.

Friday, February 13, 2009

Other side of another story

Try to read something like this and that to balance the info from other sources like this and that. I know as a human we can not please everyone. Still I really appreciate what he's trying to do, in his very humble lifestyle, even though everyone in western country blame him for being confident and open when he has to defend his own country. He's not my idol, but I respect his values. And maybe if we learn to listen to others without judging them, world peace is not only a dream.

Saturday, February 7, 2009


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Good exercise to learn living side by side without labeling people.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Following story

This is what they say after that story. So, they never make mistakes at all and never say sorry. What a smart people :( They just don't believe that The Creator exist and could see everything. Do you think they will be released from fair judgment? Maybe in this world, but not from God's, I believe.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Challenge for my kids..and myself

Sometimes I thought the challenge for my kids are not as big as mine when I was young. They live quite comfortable by having a full time mum, good shelter, good foods and even toys/books. And I often worry about that. But, looking to recent condition in the whole world, it's true what My Last and Great Prophet said: your children live in their own life with their own challenge. So for them it's not about the struggle to have a proper life anymore. It's about facing the world with so many challenge, including having good personality, strong will and tolerance as well. They might live in a border less world, as 'minority' and facing a intimidation from others. And how they will maintain their own values and beliefs meanwhile learn to respect another point of view, will be their greatest challenge. My major concern is misinformation that on purposely spreading everywhere. The truth is hidden and what's wrong seems so right. How many of us just take that info for granted. I am the one of that kind of person before. Now I learn to hear from many sides before I speak out, because I believe everyone have their own interest. And when I diggest their version, I have to keep that in mind. Anyway, why bother. Just ask God to always guide my kids, make them a good people according to God's will. That's all I need to do. My regards to mums around the globe! You'll make the world a even better place when you take care of your children with love and passion. I should learn from you all.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Hoping the truth will be seen as a truth

I read this and I have to say that it's too late. Even when you started to see the smoke over the Gaza's sky, you could tell that they used something weird. Look at the picture here, and the flare on the sky most likely coming from those dangerous and forbidden weapon. Now after some people get killed and severe skin burn, they themselves will investigating it. I was wondering what's their defense for that. Especially when you read the fact like this. You can say that it might be wrong. But how if it's true? Unfortunately everything is all about money and power. Why I keep writing about this? Because my country owe the Palestinian somehow, especially in our newborn years. And I'm not sure that everyone in Indonesia realize that, including me. I'm trying to find this document now: Diplomasi Revolusi Indonesia di Luar Negeri by Ketua Panitia Pusat Perkumpulan Kemerdekaan Indonesia , by M. Zein Hassan Lc.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

Sound of desperation

Ironic. I could only pray for the best for the doctor's family. Only God knows what will happen next. God, please bring peace in everybody's heart. I still believe that they can live side by side in peace, as their grands did.

Friday, January 16, 2009

Just can't believe this

I saw this video from Laila's page and it's really scared me. So who has the right to live in this earth? These people really forgot who create them in the first place, even when they mentioned God in every statement.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Rame yak

Iya ya, ada yg bilang, ikut2an neeeh. Ada yg bilang urus negara sendiri aja belum bener kok, pake sok belain negara orang. Ada yg bilang nooh pergi ke Papua aja, ada gempa tuh. Ato ke Sulawesi, bantuin cari korban feri. Ada yang bilang sok fanatik, sok agamis. Muacem2 dweehh. Euleeh, meni banyak euy. Mau nangkis juga gak bisa dan ogah deh aah... Tapi yg gw liat benang merahnya adalah negara dan bangsa yg 'miskin' dan 'bodoh' dibikin makin miskin dan makin bodoh sama negara maju. Informasi dipluntir2, fakta dibolak balik, kalo ada yg panas dikit dipancing2. Ujung2nya umat dipecah belah *umat nggak cuma yang segama, tapi yg sebangsa dan yg sedunia. Masing2 ngotot merasa bener, ngata2in org lain, trus maki2an deh. Trus ntar gontok2an antar 'kita' sendiri. Padahal ada yg kegirangan di belakang layar dan seneng banget tujuannya tercapai. Sedihnya kita nggak sadar kita lagi dipermainkan sama orang2 jahat, diadu domba, ditekan, dipinggirkan. Bukannya mikir gimana caranya kita melihat perbedaan sebagi suatu potensi, tapi malah dijadikan alasan untuk memusnahkan satu sama lain. Bukannya mikir gimana caranya supaya sama2 maju, tapi malah mikir gimana caranya org lain nggak bisa maju supaya kita bisa (keliatan) maju. Bukannya mikir gimana supaya semua orang bisa hidup layak, teruus aja mikirin hidupnya sendiri gimana supaya jadi tambah, tambah, tambah, tanpa peduli akibatnya untuk orang lain. Apa tho ini? Gw pribadi yakin, kita semua sudah melakukan yg terbaik buat diri kita sendiri, buat keluarga dan buat lingkungan kita. Dan gw percaya itu. Jadi tinggal lihat orang lain sebagai sesama manusia yg hidup di dunia, dengan misinya masing2 *apapun itu, urusan pribadi ybs dengan Sang Penguasa. Pertanggujawabannya juga personal kok, nggak perlu dipublish di koran lokal. Jadi misi bersamanya adalah buat diri kita, keluarga inti kita, dan ehh sukur2 bisa nyampe ke saudara2 di sekitar kita supaya well educated, equipped with good resources of accurate information. And do whatever it takes to be a better human being. Supaya tahu bagaimana mesti bersikap di dunia yang makin tidak ada batasnya ini. *Gw sendiri pusing baca postingan ini. Tapi nggak bisa nahan jempol untuk mencet button publish.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Touch your heart, stop questioning, just stop the torture!

http://www.michaelheart.com/ A blinding flash of white light Lit up the sky over Gaza tonight People running for cover Not knowing whether they're dead or alive They came with their tanks and their planes With ravaging fiery flames And nothing remains Just a voice rising up in the smoky haze We will not go down In the night, without a fight You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools But our spirit will never die We will not go down In Gaza tonight Women and children alike Murdered and massacred night after night While the so-called leaders of countries afar Debated on who's wrong or right But their powerless words were in vain And the bombs fell down like acid rain But through the tears and the blood and the pain You can still hear that voice through the smoky haze We will not go down In the night, without a fight You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools But our spirit will never die We will not go down In Gaza tonight We will not go down In the night, without a fight You can burn up our mosques and our homes and our schools But our spirit will never die We will not go down In the night, without a fight We will not go down In Gaza tonight

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Hiatus or Malestikus

Not really, just think everything through. Many things has happened, unfortunately the reports were unbalanced. Distorted information is spreading everywhere. This and that are two things that not so many people know. I still do my research, and found a lot of things that shocked me. Sounds I took a side? You can say anything, but one thing I know the untold story has to reveal. Hopefully people will notice or at least I have enough knowledge to see the difference between the truth and the lies. Now what really bother me is what should I do to make my brothers and sisters in the country well educated so they will not be a victim of 'modernization' and forget their own story, culture and dignity. So we will not get fooled by other, who will only take advantage from our stupidity. *trully a fruit of my mixed feeling remembering my own country with its problem and dillema. No heaven, no countries, no religion, no possesion? Really?

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

It's important to be fully and accurately informed

It's important to be fully and accurately informed (a very good self alert statement that I adopted from here Educate ourselves! Do some research, on anything. I mean anything... So you know how to live side by side with different kind of human being. *I'm talking to myself here

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Is it only me?

I still have to learn about history to understand what's the problem. But it's only your heart that you need to know what's right and what's wrong. If one could decided that he could end someone's life, I know that I should say: no one could take away someone's life beside The Owner of life, The Creator, The One and Only God. What makes certain people better than other? Nothing, except his good deeds on behalf of God. I saw interview on CNN between Palestinian blogger who has family in Gaza. I really respect her persistence and braveness. Reading her blog make me understand what's really happening there. And I think I should learn more about respecting life, respecting the difference between us and appreciate God's creation in any form. It's not about 'chasing terrorist' anymore, it's about vanishing people who are different from them. If the reason of this destruction is taking control of people who sent rockets to 'their territory', I should ask why the rocket was ever sent? Then I started to learn the history behind everything. I started to open world map around 40's and even before, looked for the facts in the region ever since, like this one. I believe, murder is prohibited, especially for everyone who believe there's The Owner of this life: human being, environment, everything in the sea, on the land, sky and beyond. No one should even try to take away a life for someone else. And the reason is enough to stop it now. The problem is the heart. Whether we still can hear it clearly or it's already closed.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

New Year's Eve

Tahun baru, waktunya bebenah dan merefresh mindset. Tahun baru di Trinidad? Bakalan banyak party dan liming. Mosok mau ikut2an *mana kuaaat... Hawong di Jkt aja tahun baruan cuma diisi sama tidur sampai tahun depannya :) Di Trinidad, akhir tahun ini kita, keluarga Pak Lurah, keluarga Pak Ustadz dan keluarga Indo-Trinidadian Faridah Amin, kumpul bareng ngaji. Lalu malamnya Keluarga Pak Vincent Norman gabung. Alhamdulillah... senang dan semedhulur. Makanan: mie goreng Bu Flora, spageti Faridah, nastar dan kue salju Alfa, dan cakenya Pak Vincent *iya bener PAK Vincent. Alhamdulillah cukup dan kenyang. Tapi gak sempet difoto, soalnya ribet urusan dapur :) Yang gw seneng karena kita duduk makan malam kayak keluarga besar di meja makan. Ngobrol, becanda dll. Serasa lebaran di kampung *Ini juga yg bikin gw betah ngaji, biasanya di rumah Pak Wahyu, karena abis itu makan malam rame2 di meja makan. Hehehe Anak2 menikmati pertemanan dengan sesama saudara dari Indonesia *kayaknya emang beda ya, temen Indonesia dengan teman dari negara lain. Ribut, rame, nggeratak... pokoknya enjoy themselves. Malahan kadang kita bisa menikmati time for ourselves tanpa anak2 ngrecokin. Ajaib kan :) Nggak kerasa udah 15 menit sebelum midnight dan mulai kedengeran jedhar jedhor di luar. Pindahlah kita ke balkon. Ternyata tetangga dah ada yg mulai nyalain kembang api. Jadi nonton kembang api deh kita. Di sepanjang garis pantai semua lampu keliatan nyala, juga di kapal2 yg sedang antri nyandar di port. Kadang keliatan kembang apinya. Subhanallah... Jadi bersyukur, bisa hidup tenang walaupun di negara orang. Paling tidak nggak ada terror rudal, perang, dsb. Walaupun tetap prihatin karena di belahan bumi yang lain ada saudara2 yang tidak bisa tenang hidup siang dan malam. Hanya Tuhan yang tahu bagaimana akhir ceritanya. PR gw? Belajar sejarah lebih serius supaya ngerti bener apa yg sebenarnya terjadi dan tahu yang benar itu benar, di kepala dan di hati. Amin! Happy New Year!!! Fotonya bisa dilihat di sini